Four virtues

Here are four virtues that I want to develop:

1. Patience
My father often quoted his stepfather, "Patience is a virtue, John boy." He would likewise tell me when I would become fretful, "Patience is a virtue, Teresa girl." I still suffer from lack of patience. It seems to get worse with my mental illness. I think patience is one of the fruits of the Spirit. I am sorely lacking in the Spirit. I know this, and this is actually part of the cause of my mental anguish. It's a long story, but I don't want to give up hope. That's why this blog is titled "Wandering with Hope." 

2. Generosity
I am seriously in trouble here. Something has shifted in my soul that has turned me tightfisted. I want to be generous like I once was. I don't really know where to start. Money is tight because I am no longer working. But I wonder if there aren't other ways I can be generous. I don't think I have been generous with my time, even with my husband. I have a hard time paying attention to him when he tells me about his day. It's a good place to start.

3. Modesty
I've been doing pretty well in the modest clothing department. I don't wear pants anymore, and I've rid my closet of low-cut tops and tight dresses. But modesty of the heart is another matter and that is what I wish to increase. I'm often too loud, frivolous, and attention-seeking when in the company of others. Part of it is nervousness and low self-confidence, but a large part of it is plain old pride. I want to develop shamefacedness and sobriety in my character.

4. Faithfulness
This Lent we've attended Mass perhaps only one or two times. I haven't prayed the Rosary in I don't know how long. I haven't done any sort of volunteer work or ministry in years. My attention has been on earthly things, like our bank account, my disability, what I eat and what I wear, what others eat and wear, and so on. My plan is to start with the basics- Mass and the Rosary, and go from there.